little journey since I was on last tried to drink myself silly, tried to get run over by a car, latest popped one two many pills. Feeling very lonely in human contact. Have 2 cats since September. Have an ex g/f and fellow who both what me and I just want a friend. Don't have friends know lots of people thru my volunteering.After being here in this apartment finally putting curtains up and putting pictures on the wall. My mother, daughter and son don't understand me just say spank out of it. It's 11:37 can't sleep wish I could sleep. The shrink put me on pills for anxiety to slow me sown but doesn't seem to be working Miss you all